Today I went to go see the Muppet Movie with my sister and mom and thank goodness it was dark because I balled like a baby. Gary and I have both loved the Muppets from the time we were kids he even had a membership card in the Muppet fan club. This would have been a movie that he would have wanted to see at midnight opening night.The main character in the movie was named Gary too. I hope that God let him watch it with us from heaven :( I always thought of us as Miss Piggy and Kermit but unfortunately life doesn't always have Happy endings :( After the tears dried we got lunch and then headed to the American girl Hotel.
On the way to the American girl hotel I followed the directions from my GPS and I thought that this little GPS is an instrument in my recreation. When we would travel in the past Gary would either drive or he would be right there telling me turn here and turn there and when he died I lost my co-pilot that is one of the main reasons that I feared going on this vacation because I did not have that co-pilot and well the girls tell me I can be a creative driver but thanks to that sweet little machine I am not quit as unique of a driver I have only got lost twice so YEAH navigation systems :) It is amazing how God works He provides in unique ways but he always does provide.

Recreating Cindy

In July I was a happily married woman with joint checking accounts everything in my life was done as a pair. Then August 2nd I had to tell my sweet husband goodbye as he lost his battle with bone and live cancer. All of the sudden this perfect partnership was now a single and in the next month my bank made me change my checking accounts from joint to single and I had to get a credit card on my own and this past weekend I had to buy a car on my own. That has been on top of parenting on my own and making decisions on my own. We would talk about everything we made a joint choice about dinner I mean we were one in every since. In the last three months I have had to mourn my husband and begin a process that may be even more difficult and that is the redefinition of me..I spent the weekend after a tree fell on my old car looking toward heaven asking God why oh why did He take Gary I need him HERE so bad I cant handle all these things without his help. I could almost hear Gary tell me "the girl I married couldn't handle this life but the woman I left is doing a great Job". I use to tell Gary the thing that meant more than any gold or silver was him telling me that he was proud of me and now more than ever I am going to embrace this process of redefinition and hopefully build on the foundation of confidence and love that Gary built and rebuild Cindy in a way that will make Gary grab my face when I get to heaven like he used to and tell me that he is so very proud of me. I also cannot wait to hear God say well done good and faithful.